I feel like less than shit right now. It’s like I dug a little hole in the ground just big enough for me to curl up into and lay in. It’s as if every part of my body got turned into glass and was smashed with a hammer. I can’t change it, I can’t fix it. The situation sucks so much I can barley comprehend it. I could have changed it and I could have fucking fixed it but no. The harsh reality is finally setting in and getting to me that I can’t have you back ill never have you back. I shouldn’t be this emotional about it. I really fucking shouldn’t. I’ve just been sitting in what feels like some sort of fog trying to figure out what I can do to fix this but there’s nothing. I feel so blank and numb but at the same time there’s this overwhelming sense of shock.
